air mata itu..

bila aku x tau nk bercerita kat sape, akhirnya aku balik kat blog ni..even dah berhabuk sbb lama x menaip kt sini, xpe..aku nk luahkan perasaan kt sini..

semalam ada course kat bandar K..aku xnak pegi, sbb apa yg akan diajar aku dah buat bnda tu everyday..x guna gi dgr bnda yg sama, lgpo aku byk deadline semalam..itu ini nk kena submit..

pegi sana, aku sampai lambat, about 9.30..course start 8.30, aku wat muka x malu je masuk dewan..10.30 tea break, aku g maka..x bf lagi..after tea break, aku blah..mls nk dgr dah, aku drive balik opis..

dekat traffic lite nk sampai opis, aku belok simpang masuk umah aku..x g opis la jawabnya..dah dekat lunch pon..suddenly cd player mainkan lagu fave aku, harum subur dihati..(cd tu mmg aku burn lagu fave aku je sume..)

dr dulu sampai skg, aku mmg feeling bila dgr lagu ni..dan semalam, tah kenapa feeling tu terlebih, aku jd emo..sebak tiba2..cun2 je sampai dpn umah, mata aku dah berair, perut aku lak sakit nk ke toilet..stat je aku masuk toilet, air mata aku turun laju selebat ujan kat luar.. aku kalau masuk toilet mmg xde la word sekejap tu..(org yg knl aku tau bape lama aku masuk toilet)..dan selama aku dlm toilet tu, selama tu jgk air mata aku mengalir laju, sampai tersedu sedan..sume memory terbayang2 depan mata..

Allah..Kau je yg tau rindu nya aku pada mereka..aku rasa mcm dh x larat nk tanggung rindu, jd aku luahkan nya melalui air mata...

aku x kesah nk bercerita pasal life aku, ie laki yg aku suka, keje aku, osmet aku, opismet aku, kwn2 aku etc..tp aku jarang nk sebut pasal parent aku kt kawan2..sbb tu bila aku rindu mereka, aku x tau camane nk cite kat kwn yg sudi dengar..endingnya, aku nangis sorang2..sekian..

in loving memory of....

-thurs/280208/0930am-

redup mata mu
putih kulit mu
manis senyum mu
merdu suara mu
lembut belaian mu
hangat pelukan mu
ikhlas kasih mu
tabah hati mu


RINDU ku pada mu..
bertemankan pilu...



yang patah kan tumbuh, yang hilang kan berganti

namun sesuatu yang aku sangat pasti..

yang pergi takkan kembali....


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no one knows how I miss u, no one knows the bitter pain
since u gone, life has never been the same

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone



p/s : (in loving memory of - 4th death anniversary)

~off~